Since this is my blog, but I am quite literally unable to be succinct, I will endeavor to do my best to not ramble on. Of course, I’ve made that promise before and failed miserably.
To the point: I am obese. Morbidly so.
No, I’m not like many other women who say they are “fat” or even “overweight” whether they be a size 4 or 16. There is a difference between being overweight and morbidly obese. Without turning this into a medical dissertation, “Morbidly” is a serious health condition that can interfere with basic physical functions such as breathing or walking. Those who are morbidly obese are at greater risk for illnesses including diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD), gallstones, osteoarthritis, heart disease, and cancer. And death. DEATH.
The purpose of this blog is multi-fold.
First, it is a testament to my will to not give up. To do everything I can to lose weight, get healthy and stay healthy. And live. LIVE.
Second, it’s a way for me to not only be accountable for my actions (or in-actions), but also to eventually begin to show myself the progress I’ve made. To prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to. To believe in myself. To be proud of myself.
To LOVE myself.
Lastly, it’s a way for me to garnish the support, and through that support, the strength I need to not only start this journey but to continue it.
My struggle is one that I will never be able to simply cross the Finish Line and call it a day. It will mean a complete lifestyle change and perhaps a continuous struggle, but one that I hope will eventually become easier.
You see, I’ve been down this road before. And people have been there for me all along. To my disappointment (and my perception – theirs), for too many times to count, every one of my roads so far have been a “failure”. But I can’t give up because it’s my life and I want to be here for as long as God allows me to be.
This blog will eventually touch upon how I got here in the first place (while some may still be a mystery even to me), what I’ve done or not done to date, and where I hope to be in the future. And that I have a future – a long one.
Your support, encouragement, even your forgiveness when I slip-up (note to self as well), but more importantly, your LOVE, would be so very much appreciated.
So won’t you join me on my journey?
There…that wasn’t too long, was it? 🙂
Journey to a New Life 
Dani,
The fact that you’ve constantly looked and found ways to express your desire to keep going on your journey, is testament to the fact that you my dear, are NOT nor EVER have been a failure.
Your determination is admirabke…and quite inspirational.
I will continue to support you in way I am able!
Hold your head high and with pride!!
Your hard work is already paying off!
️Xo
Anne
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Thank you so much for your love and support my friend. xoxo
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Dani, I just want you to know how much you inspire me and I’m sure many others in your life. I can always count on you to put a real smile on my face and help me find the strength to push on for another day. I’ve had my own health struggles these last couple of years and have looked to you for the inspiration to once again get back up for another battle when I sometimes just wanted to pull the covers over my head and not bother to get up cause it hurt to much but through it all I saw you continually getting back up and trying again and Dani just so you know….that does count for something…..It means the world to me my friend!
Thank you!
Love you Lots
Maisie
xoxox
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Wow Maisie, that is just so wonderful of you to say. All these years I’ve never felt I was helping anyone, let alone myself. I appreciate your kinds words and especially that I’ve been some help with you making it through some of your darker moments. You’re a wonderful friend and I’m grateful to have you in my life. Thank you!
Love you back very much. Dani xo
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Dani…funny…I found this blog, it answers my questions! I’ve noticed a new Dani in your post lately and now I know why. Even though we don’t see you all the time, I’m glad we have kept in touch all these years. There must be a reason for that so I’m going to assume it’s to support you and join you on this brave and emotional journey. I like this “new” Dani but I hope you do keep your quick wit, sarcasm and spunk to join the softer, compassionate,kinder Dani as well. How can you not climb this mountain with all these friends & family loving and supporting you! Stay positive!
💖Susan
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Thanks Susan for stopping by and for your comments. Yes I’ve been trying to be more positive because I finally realized it wasn’t doing me any good at all. But don’t worry – the sarcastic, witty and spunky parts of me are still there. I doubt I could ever lose them even if I wanted to.
But I needed to start thinking better about myself more than anything. I’ve gotten some great support through the years but I’m needing it now more than ever. So I’m glad you’ll be around with me on this journey. I’ve appreciate yours and Wayne’s friendship all these years; it has meant a lot.
After all, there’s only one Dani and where would you guys be without me to remind you of that. LOL! xoxo
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