Since this is my blog, but I am quite literally unable to be succinct, I will endeavor to do my best to not ramble on. Of course, I’ve made that promise before and failed miserably.
To the point: I am obese. Morbidly so.
No, I’m not like many other women who say they are “fat” or even “overweight” whether they be a size 4 or 16. There is a difference between being overweight and morbidly obese. Without turning this into a medical dissertation, “Morbidly” is a serious health condition that can interfere with basic physical functions such as breathing or walking. Those who are morbidly obese are at greater risk for illnesses including diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD), gallstones, osteoarthritis, heart disease, and cancer. And death. DEATH.
The purpose of this blog is multi-fold.
First, it is a testament to my will to not give up. To do everything I can to lose weight, get healthy and stay healthy. And live. LIVE.
Second, it’s a way for me to not only be accountable for my actions (or in-actions), but also to eventually begin to show myself the progress I’ve made. To prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to. To believe in myself. To be proud of myself.
To LOVE myself.
Lastly, it’s a way for me to garnish the support, and through that support, the strength I need to not only start this journey but to continue it.
My struggle is one that I will never be able to simply cross the Finish Line and call it a day. It will mean a complete lifestyle change and perhaps a continuous struggle, but one that I hope will eventually become easier.
You see, I’ve been down this road before. And people have been there for me all along. To my disappointment (and my perception – theirs), for too many times to count, every one of my roads so far have been a “failure”. But I can’t give up because it’s my life and I want to be here for as long as God allows me to be.
This blog will eventually touch upon how I got here in the first place (while some may still be a mystery even to me), what I’ve done or not done to date, and where I hope to be in the future. And that I have a future – a long one.
Your support, encouragement, even your forgiveness when I slip-up (note to self as well), but more importantly, your LOVE, would be so very much appreciated.
So won’t you join me on my journey?